This year i’ve spent a lot of time trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. It’s been hard, but there have been many great lessons and experiences along the way.
I’m 28, I have a masters degree, and I’ve done nothing but work in jobs where I wasn’t using my education. The people I worked with were amazing and there were things I loved about each job– but I wasn’t happy. In fact I was utterly depressed.
One day, my boyfriend and I were talking about different employment options I had around where we live. After another year of looking (and admittedly not looking hard enough) nothing had come up. I was still not using my degree. Still not able to pay back those student loans. But I’d allowed myself to get comfortable in the job I was in.
He’s a huge Friends fan and showed me the following clip from Episode 10 of Season 3 entitled “The One Where Rachel Quits.” Rachel is 28, and working in a job that she hates. Joey and Chandler talk her into quitting so that she can move on to work at a job that will fulfill her aspirations and dreams.
Needless to say after watching this clip, I could really relate to Rachel. I didn’t hate my job, but it wasn’t fulfilling for me. It wasn’t what I wanted to do with my life.
I needed “The Fear.”
I needed it so bad I could taste it. So I took the leap. I didn’t quit my job (I’d never quit something without another opportunity lined up— especially in this area), but I did go out on a limb and send out some applications I might not have otherwise.
It felt amazing.
I got some interviews, didn’t get those jobs, and ended up more depressed than ever.
Until the boyfriend reminded me that I did have something going for me. I’m a certified teacher. I could substitute teach in a couple of local school districts. And I would have time to work more on my blogs and grow my audience. I would also have more time to work on my book, which I’ve been trying to finish all year.
A weight was lifted off my shoulders. I could use my education. I could do the things I loved. And be happy doing them.
And I had spent years of my life not doing those things full-time. I had no clue why I didn’t think to sub myself. I subbed for my hometown’s school district for years before I got my last job.
The biggest life lesson I’ve learned from all of this is that life is way too short to not do the things you love.
I needed my last job to get where I am today. I met some awesome people and learned new skills I wouldn’t have otherwise. But it was time to move on and take a leap. Is it a chance? Hell yes.
Will it be worth it? Most definitely.
Do you love what you do? Find something you love and go do it! Make your life what you want it to be. Don’t waste time doing something that is making you depressed or anxious.
Get “the fear”!
I did. And I feel amazing about the direction my life is taking. There will be more going on here at Amanda’s Nose in a Book as well as on my DIY & Craft blog. Hopefully TGGC will finally get finished!